Ok, I'm going to try and focus on the positive of what I just did!!!
Since May, I have been running 3 - 4.5 miles three to four days a week in preparation of running another road race to improve my time. The goal was to improve my time and yet also build up my stamina to endure the tests of a 10K, half marathon and then MAYBE a marathon one day. Well tonight, I ran my second 5K since then. I thought it would be fun to run at night in the
In case you can't read that because of the smearing ICE RAIN on the camera lens, it reads HOLIDAY LIGHTS SPECTACULAR. I had heard so many wonderful things about this event; how the runners are able to run through this beautiful display of winter lights, all the while running the path at the park through the woods. It sounded magical. I did run with my camera (someone reminded me today of how good I was at multi tasking, so I guess this is a true testament of that) and take some shots along the course. Here is a shot to give you an idea of what parts of the course looked like to the runners.
I would like to say that the picture is fuzzy because of how FAST I was running but that would be a lie. The picture is blurry because of the almost freezing temperature, and the fact that the rain had started to come down at this point and was pelting me in the face. The camera also suffered a bruising. So that is why the picture is blurry.
Back to the actual race: I didn't run it alone. Two other MOMS Clubbers were running tonight (Jerri and Denise) as well as my friend Dawn (not pictured). This is us FREEZING our butts off BEFORE running the race. Did I mention we were cold?
And this picture is a POST run picture. Notice the icicles forming on my head and the fact we are all smiles because we know we can seek warmth and shelter from the elements? LOL
Anyway, like I said, I am trying very hard to focus on the positive. So here are so more positive things I can say.
While I wanted to finish this race under 27 minutes, I didn't do that, HOWEVER I did beat my time from May. Not by much, but I did. In the overall standings (listed below) I placed 23rd overall and 4th in my age division.
So yes, I should be happy about all of that. AND I should be proud of myself for even toughing it out in the cold, rain and wind. Yes I SHOULD be....however, I am not!
I know I could have done better. I just know it. That is what is eating me alive. There were factors working against me (weather, exhaustion, night time versus day time running, unfamiliar course, WEATHER ~ did I say that already?) but I wish I could have still toughed it out and challenged myself harder to finish with a better time. However, there were certain points during the race I let my mind freak me out. Let me paint a picture for you.
As I was running along and taking pictures of the pretty lights, I gave no thought about the fact we were about to enter so DARK wooded areas AT NIGHT in a very sketchy town. Yes it was at a park and yes there were course officials spread out, but still. There were a couple times throughout the race when I was ''circled'' by a few men. Being alone (literally having a deployed husband and a babysitter at night with my kids) in a dark wooded area surrounded by men with no other witnesses really really played with my head. To the point where I slowed down so they would pass me by. I could have sped up but then they would still be behind me. It was a really freaky feeling and I'm certain most of it was in my head. They finally did pass me, but once I saw the finishing area, I made up those lost spots and past them in the end. My time though is a reflection of how CAUTIOUS I was. Had I not let that get to me, I really do feel I could have placed and timed better. But in the end this was my finishing time:
It's not the greatest time...but considering the FREAKIN' cold, I'll take it (again, focusing on the positive)
On another note, look how much fun the kids had with our sitter Roni!!!! Who doesn't love CUPCAKES????