Saturday, July 30, 2011


I feel somewhat guilty about not having had a real blog entry in like FOREVER, but to be quite honest it's not like I have had much to say. Most of you are on my Facebook so you can follow along there and see what's going on with the kids and with our family life, so I feel at least there's that. However, I do need a space to just vent sometimes and thankfully not a lot of people read this, at least people I "vent" about, so it's nice to just come here, be anonymous (in a sense) and just spew away.

What is really weird about the timing of my rant today is that I am actually on a very high HIGH right now! Both my boys (ages 6 and 8) completed their first triathlon. Neither of them are "swimmers" or "bikers" but have done running club, so compared to the kids that showed up with their ultra fast and sleeve tri suits and road bikes, and fancy running shoes, we had true amateurs of the sport...AND THEY ROCKED IT!! I am so proud of them. I can't say enough about them. The came, they saw and the conquered and they are even talking about next year's event. My husband and I, both triathletes (he more than me I guess) are so proud of them and love that we may have fueled a fire.

So it's really unfortunate that on a day such is this, I cannot stop thinking about some grief in my life.

I have never been a girly girl. EVER. I can't really relate to them very well. I don't get pedis, manis, massages for pleasure. My pedis are "exposure therapy" for my foot phobia. I don't care to have nails (they are cumbersome to the jock life I live, high maintenance and expensive) and my massages are scheduled monthly as a means to help me lengthen and stretch my muscles (and yes they are heavenly).  Among other things, I just have a hard time relating to women.

I have a hard time understanding why some women feel the need to bring other women down simply to bring themselves up. Someone please explain this to me. It appears as though I am very naive to think that we should just all get along and accept others as they are. And apparently "if you have nothing nice to say" you should just say it....and see what reaction it brings, instead of keeping it to yourself.

I don't like those rules. I don't care to make people feel badly about themselves or about something they may or may not have done intentionally. Yet others feel that SHARING (whether it be good, bad or ugly) is a far better approach in maintaining friendships.

Because I don't play that way I am choosing to keep my mouth doing so, I am about to blow my top!

I wish I could say more but that's just me.


Alyssa said...

We got our computer fixed! And now your page loads! And it's perfect timing because I was JUST GETTING READY TO HAVE A SIMILAR POST!!!

I am so sick of the way women behave sometimes!! I have very recently developed good friendships with a small group of women who are good and fun and nice and genuine. And even within this group, there's an undertone of competition. And don't even get me started on how other women (that I am forced to interact with - its unavoidable) act towards me and others. It's just disgusting sometimes. I try not to take things personal, but when someone is attacking you in a personal way... its hard not to let your feelings get hurt. Blah.

I hear ya sister, I hear ya!

Chi-townRawlins said...

Oh wow, ladies! I'm so sorry to hear you're both dealing with this. What a drag. I love you both and think the world of you ladies. I really, truly do. I just love knowing that GOOD people like you are around. I don't know if that helps, butI hope it does. I think you (and Lyll) are fantastic.

Anonymous said...

WOW - isn't this the truth. You do have to 'turn the other cheek' but speaking from a generation older, it is very hard. Try your best to just smother them with kindness - it will surely take them by surprise. :-)

Denise said...

I know what you mean. However, the reason you are such a good friend to so many people is because you are kind and thoughtful. Don't let others get you down, they aren't worth it. Love ya!